OM AT VILLE SORTERE UD // SORTING OUT

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Dette indlæg kommer til at blive et mere personligt indlæg end det forrige. Det kommer nok mest af alt til at handle om selvanalyse, selvfordybelse og selviagttagelse - et introspektion om man så må sige.

Jeg er nok mest af alt lidt af en perfektionist. Og når jeg tænker mig om, har jeg nok også altid været det. Jeg har minder tilbage fra de meget små klasser i folkeskolen, hvor alle farveblyanterne skulle været stillet op efter farve, mit værelse var også oftest farvekoordineret og et par gange om året, tømte jeg det for alt hvad det indeholdt, sorterede i hvilke ting, jeg ville beholde og hvilke, der skulle smides ud. Så lidt minimalist er jeg så også.

Jeg har altid haft en enorm trang til at sortere ud, smide ud og starte op på nu. Med de sociale mediers indtog er det ikke blevet meget bedre - hvis jeg tænker mig om, er det nok kun facebook, som jeg ikke på et eller andet tidspunkt har ryddet gennemgående op i. Jeg skammer mig faktisk over at indrømme, at jeg allerede har haft denne lyst med bloggen. Efter kun to indlæg har jeg allerede lysten til at starte forfra, slette alle indlæg, fordi jeg ved, at jeg med den rette øvelse ville kunne forbedre dem. Så det er en del af min egen, personlige udfordring med bloggen. Jeg vil prøve, at lade alt blive, så jeg (og I, der følger med derude) vil kunne se den udvikling, der (forhåbentlig) kommer til at ske.

Hvorfor skriver jeg dette nu? Det er der sikkert flere grunde til. Det er i hvert fald ikke noget, jeg har set andre omtale, men det er jo ikke nødvendigvis ensbetydende med, at der ikke er andre, som har det på samme måde. Og selvom chancerne er meget små, kan det være, der en da er en ligesindet, som ser dette indlæg og opdager, at de altså ikke er den eneste. Dette virker måske lidt malplaceret, især når man tænker på, at mit forrige indlæg var et forsøg på noget mere mode-relateret blogging. Men jeg tror, man skal prøve lidt af det hele af, for at finde ud af, hvad det virkelig er, man brænder for. Og det er stadig den fase jeg er i - afprøvning. Og selvom alt ikke er perfekt allerede nu, er det også en fase, man skal igennem. Og det skal jeg lære at acceptere. For det er helt okay.

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The post will be more personal than the previous one. It will mostly surround topics such as self-analysis, self-communion and self-observation. I guess you could call it introspection.

I probably am somewhat of a perfectionist. And when I sit down and think about it, I've been like this for as long as I can remember. I have memories going back to the first years of school, where I'd always sort my pencils and markers by color, my room was mostly color-coordinated and a few times a year I'd even empty it out completely in order to sort everything into a "toss" and "keep" pile. So I guess I'm somewhat of a minimalist as well.

I've always had a need to sort out, toss out and start fresh. And after social media has basically taken over entire lives it hasn't improved - if I think back, I believe facebook is the only social media, where I haven't at one point deleted everything in order to start fresh. I'm actually ashamed to admit that I've already had a desire to do this with the blog. After only to posts I've already wished to start fresh, delete all the posts, because I know that once I've had enough training I'd be able to improve. So this to is a part of my own personal challenge with the blog. I want to try to leave everything I post up, so that one day I (and you guys too, of course) will be able to look back and see the progress, that (hopefully) will have been.

Why am I writing this now? There are probably several reasons for that. For one, this isn't a subject, I've seen anyone else write about. But that doesn't mean, nobody else feels this way. And even though the chances are slim, maybe one day someone similarly disposed will find this post and realize, that they aren't the only one. This may seem a little untimely, when you think about how my last post was an attempt at something slightly more fashion related. But I believe you have to try everything out in order to truly discover what you want. And that's still the phase I'm in - discovering. And even though this means, that everything isn't perfect yet, it's a phase everyone has to go through. And that is something I need to learn to accept. Because it's completely okay.